Day 1

I'm fat. I weigh 215 pounds, which is about 30 pounds MORE than my husband. I wasn't always like this. I'm not sure what happened, but I know I need to change it.

My goals:
1. Do one pull-up
2. Run for 10 consecutive minutes
3. Eat more healthy (healthily?)
4. Quit smoking - not sure how I feel about this one since I enjoy it so much. Yeah, I know the dangers and that I should really quit, especially having had my cervix removed b/c I have HPV and HPV and smoking is just asking for it.
5. Cut back on sugar

That's it for now. I think writing all this out will help me. I don't have a game plan yet, but I'm looking forward to the challenge. I am sick of being this way. I hate what I've become. I hate that people don't notice me at all. They don't acknowledge me. Except other fatties.

More than anything though, I hate that I'm that wife. The one that's let herself go. And I'm sure people feel sorry for J since he's so fit and athletic. I want him to be proud of me. Not to be confused with doing this for him. This is all for me.